Reaction to Ch.4-6

I thought these chapters were extremely suspenseful and thrilling. As they progressed I realized the full extent and the nature of his crime as well as his conflicting emotions on wether or not he could go through with it. I liked how he was protective of his sister, not wanting her to waste her life or sacrifice herself for him or his mother. He realized that she would only sacrifice herself if it meant he would benefit, and he won't have any of it. Also, I thought that the graphic and violent dream he had was an extreme foreshadow onto what he was thinking about. It was almost as if his sub-conscious was trying to tell him not to go through with the murder because its exactly the same as the horse being killed. However, the coincidental events leading up to his murder of Aliona Ivanova provide him with more opportunities and support his ideas that he is justified in committing the murder. There was a line that struck me as almost a paradox, "he entered his room like a man condemned to death." (pg.60) He was about to murder an innocent woman for her money, and yet he felt like he was condemned to death? It shed light on how he did not truly want to go through with the crime, however, he does it anyways, though I'm not sure why. He has moments when he convinces himself that he could never go through with it, and other moments when he feels so pressured it is the only way to continue. He has a great amount conflict occurring inside him, and I'm anxious to see what happens next. 

- Madie